Doggie

I had a weekend vacation -- a picnic, but I think I spent most of it babysitting than having fun. Then, going back to work afterward. This can't be right. Plus, I did some emotional eating. I've been avoiding sweets until last week; I've been eating more candy. maybe that's why my cough returned

So on my vacation....I remembered the treasure of Golden Girls.
Hotel TV can be a little relaxing. So I was stuck with news and comedy classics.

Golden Girls. It's up there with "I Love Lucy": Unforgettable, everyone (?) watched it, and I'm not sure if I watched all of the episodes. If I love it because there is such good chemistry. You can't pick a favorite out of the four, even though I've heard that Betty White and Bea Arthur didn't get along? Or not to an extremity -- they just had different opinions.

And I totally forgot that Bea and Estelle (in the show) were daughter and mother respectively. That explains why they're both so snide. The only contrast they have in how they express this snide. Bea has this humorous scowl that sometimes you wonder if she smiles (she does), and Estelle is that lively Italian-ish stereotype. Cool daughter and open-door mother. Something like that.

To compete with the straight-man Bea (and Estelle), we have the cheery idiots of Betty and Rue's characters. I totally forgot how....naughty Rue was. COMPLETELY forgot.

I suddenly thought, "She is such a whore..." But then I loved it. Dating so graceful. Every single girl.

GG Opening them is still one of my favs: Memorable favorites such as "All in the Family"




Thank you for being a friend.

Terrible, shameful week...sort of. I recently lost another uncle, robbed at work, and I just...forget important things at home more than once. Being robbed was partially my fault, and I was upset with myself. You can't trust anyone as I work with too many disgruntled people.

( Never easy )

There is plenty of potential. If you really love/want something, you have to really have effort. Treat it as a part of your life if you want to follow it, especially professionally.

Within a few hours, I can change, but stress does not mix well with art.

My quarters are in a jumble and I can't focus with niece around. Fortunately, after so much strain and effort, she will finally go to school. For me and family to go through such foolishness just shows how people are incapable of caring for children. Not trying to sound mean that she can leave me for a while. She can finally go to school because she wanted to (so she says), and it is healthy for children, so I don't understand why anyone would delay that.

I get flattered much, but I don't think I'm that good.

Here's the thing: I'm too distracted, but lately have been racking my brain over my next (?) ambition and annoying people with questions. I don't have all the tools, and I'm going to have a talk with an adviser to ease my worries. It still feels like a nigh impossible thing to pursue, least in my case. A person should follow through with what they care about, but is it enough? Do I really have the talent?

I'm going to be a bit vague here because one or two things can prevent me to go along with this plan completely.

Having heartfelt feeling about it for years, it must be the right choice. I have been ignoring the feelings, but it might've been a mistake? So, what should I do? "Understand, work" is the practice. Do it incessantly. But first, before I do anything, I really should talk to the adviser first.

Aside from that, I had a long, tough working week. It is another problem, making things less flexible. The constant niece distraction isn't helping me at all, but I can finally say that she has a chance to go to school.

Napping is good.

NOTE to self: Update "A little about Doggie".

Doesn't seem to be a nice thing on my friends feed.

Hate it when I hear things and it makes me upset because I know well that I got my feelings hurt or laughed at for just...saying/doing minor things online and IRL. I can name a few things recently. It's so unnecessary that, after hearing another's story, I conjure up past garbage inside my brain and make myself insecure. No better considering where I am now. There's no telling what gets spread around through workplace or family.

But hey, that's the brain. Spontaneous.

I guess when you're highly educated and either in management or about to enter management, it's acceptable to be rude.

I also learn that it's OK to cut off your girlfriend/boyfriend for asking dumb questions. A single one maybe? but then again, I know someone who doesn't leave her abusive boyfriend of a bad reputation so it works either way. Well, to that guy, all I can say that you had her as a girlfriend.

So we all asked this question before: "How doesn't people know this/that?"

I think the answer is simple: Just not engaged enough.

Today was just one of those tired weeks.

Hi.



Middle of the week, I wanted to rant about something. Sometimes I can't help but question others' stupidity, or how a person thinks, especially when it comes to being "a man" or "a woman' (AKA: an adult), or what "love" is.

But then, I thought "no" and stopped myself because it's just stupid. It's also obvious. I can't expect anything better from a particular person.

If I wanted to blog about a problem, I probably want to with the purpose of making others think twice. News articles can do the same.

Like I said before, I don't like giving off a bad impression too much, and I also said that it won't make me feel better. Social media can lead others through a lie, show only one side of a story, and personally those who complain the most are the others who cause the most problems. Least that's my opinion.

Right now, I need to learn how to not be frustrated.

What I do want to know is what's next for me? Thinking about it, I must be afraid of returning to school because of a few memories. I was into art (ie: Drawing, pottery) and automobiles, and I even did...eh, I can't even recall what it was. Something for PCs. It was highly assumed by family members that I was great with PCs just because I use it often. If I don't remember, it goes to show how much I didn't care. I prefer to use the PC for hobby or research.

No, I don't want to talk about Mr. Nemoy. Not in the mood. Made me a little upset.

[ TEAM ISHIDA ]


Never played phone games outside of Angry Birds and Fruit Ninja because I am just attached to console gaming, but I guess frustration got the better of me and I wanted to test the flexibility of the phone. Went do far to download Chess, Checkers and Sudoku.

"I need something to do while I take a breather" I just thought. I was especially looking for a RPG. So I foound Brave Frontier (header photo) and "Chain Chronicle (SEGA; 2nd photo). I am also playing "build games" such as Samurai Siege and Clash of Clans, but I just might remove them. I also briefly played Zenonia 4. While Zeno4 looked very interesting, I can't use the touch d-pad. Absolutely not. Not comfortable with it at all or any games that use it.

Being used to the conventional RPG with level grinding, Brave Frontier is pretty annoying because it uses a "fuse system" to make the characters stronger. They don't level up in battle. In the first photo are three five-star (or very rare) characters and it's still difficult. I even have 4-star Earth Pike Lance and I have to evolve him with a couple more materials.

Voice actor Ishida Akira (石田彰) voices over 40 characters in Chain Chronicle. Plenty of pretty guys or kids, but there is also burly dudes like Greg (above) and old men/veterans like Cervantes (Who says "Wakazo gaaaaa!" or "Greenhorn!"). SASUGA ISHIDA!

Not sure of the thought on the hero's name (you pick your own). I guess it's close to Aghanim, Athrun and Arslan.

Lots of Uchida Maaya too; apparently Yanagita Junichi (柳田淳一) plays a lot of loud or fired up characters, so far my fav being Dusty. Maybe I'll do another screenshot with Ishida characters one day.

Tokkyuger and fanfic project next.

Of course the bass I'm thinking of doesn't rhyme with ass, unless its the fish.

Unnerving Christmas Eve, driving nearly blind in a rainy night.

I've come to the conclusion that this is one of the worst years thus far.

On the side of my mother's family, two people died and for one she had to leave the country. My dog died of course.

GamerGate made a commotion, and I still have yet to understand the full details of it, or rather, being a girl gamer myself, I didn't want to realize that gender bias had so much negative consequences effecting a wide community.

An array of earaches!!! I have one now. This hasn't happened, not this often in a whole year, since childhood.

JewWario, Nagai Ichiro, Naya Rokuro right near the end (that man wasn't 80...), Joan Rivers, Bob Hoskins, John Pinette, Mickey Rooney, Joe Cocker, Maya Angelou, Robin....etc.

John Pinette was very sudden. He could easily humor me with, I guess you would call, "fat boy comedy". What fat people love to eat, can or can't do, etc.

After Kyoryuger successfully brought me to Sentai, I enter Tokkyuger. Personally, I think it has a better storyline when it regards the characters because there isn't a person in the world that didn't have a childhood. But Kyoryuger has the best characters comparing the two, especially the best villains. For Tokkyuger, the most interesting baddie is probably Schwarz.

Thanks to Rider Gaim, or Gaimu, I probably received my very first net gift: GAIM LOCKSEEDS. Even thought, Gaimu was a Urobochi balance of life mess. I'm not even sure what kept me watching. It wasn't horrible, but Urobochi enjoys questioning morals such as justice and evil. So he's going to shove desperation and confusion down us. But torture is always fun in fiction, so why not. But I am seeing better in W and OOO. What was good was the various Riders/arms, and plenty of fighting, especially between riders. Cool items such as the Hinawa Daidai DJ Gun. Just how did a situation between dance groups escalate into something so horrible? Easily kids find battle in a game, at least before the reality of the other-worldly monsters dawn on them.

Naruto ends in 15 years.

And there is a wide array of civil rights issues that I will not discuss about.

I bought and beat Legend of Zelda: SKYWARD SWORD. Definitely a good game.

And then there's me. Constant babysitting, I had to put many shows on hold. Let's just say that enjoying hobbies is not easy. I think at this point I cracked. It makes me want to question my moral compass.

I believe that my resolution was to read at least 3 or 4 books. Don't think I succeeded, but finished Pirates Latitude, an adventure against the Spanish, and Yukikaze, an inquisition about man in a world of machines. Reading these, and reading American Sniper now, just makes me remember the convenience of reading.

And my Hyrule Historia is still collecting dust (but I guess I keep it hidden now, even after beating SKyward Sword, because niece overlord likes it and will rip it). I should just put on a Zelda Medley and open up the book.

But right now, the Christmas season has me in its grasp. As well as munchkin.

My mother is currently out of town to attend a funeral.

There's talk about suing Joan Rivers' doctor.

I'll just leave this:

ありがとう、我が師カミュ…そして、さようなら… 宝瓶宮戦、本当に聖闘士星矢の中でも愛に溢れた戦いでした クールだけど全然クールじゃないカミュ先生が愛おしいです ありがとう、納谷さん pic.twitter.com/GKDVIOsDj2

— みやび (@whitecat9702) November 18, 2014

In this case, my Hyouga crying icon is very suitable.

As for me, slight ear pain. Had some snow. Really, there isn't much to say. Not much I can do with the baby involved, and it's annoying on and off. Keep losing my inspiration when I tell myself that "I'm stuck".

TV wise, I picked up TERRAFORMARS.

I don't like having regrets.

I'm facing cowardice again. If I think "I want to", or "I can", such as being a pilot or joining the military, it'd be enough to put some faith in the ability called "trying". Still now, I keep holding myself back.

Just like being a game master for RPGS. Just what went wrong?

Reflecting, I often found myself not liking the crew that I'm with. An unmotivated, insulting group. Play-by-post RPGS grew tedious. Maybe I shouldn't say that; games are like that when you play a game more than once, or various genres. I'm having the same feelings in workplace. I sense that a part of my crew is dragging and not that fabulous, or is it my imagination?

But more importantly, I again forget how to love myself, to stop worrying, and to stop staying in one spot because I feel some burden.

Being positive, enthusiasm, I have these. But I always worry about accumulating knowledge. Indecision, feeling that I don't have the right talent because I keep being turned down. I let the past fuel my insecurities because of what people said to me.

"No...I can't be a leading type. [I did that before]".

But I think, it looks like, I'm really depended on because of something I have.

I would definitely put this in a top saddest song/greatest love song list. This seems a little too much for a pet song. This would fit better for my mom, but I like it anyway. Tammy Wynette's version is less sad.

[ More Morgie ]
She would've been 16 this year. TO carry something for so long, there should be a story to tell.

But do I have much of a story?

( To have a pet )

I think I mentioned already that my niece is keeping me occupied, and likes to use my PC to watch videos. The best time to blog is when she's sleeping. Recently, there has been some carpenter work and tons of cleaning for the arrival of company.

With that said, I probably shouldn't tell a long story.

Some people are just disgusting, and I'm quoting: "Having autistic kids that don't eat what we give them" Something along those lines. This lady had an ugly tone when she said it because she was mad at a fast food store. Reminds me of the crap I see on Twitter, like "remember when wheelchairs were not for fat people?" or something like that?

And it also just reminded me: courtesy is good after all. I don't think its regrettable to practice good mannerisms, whether you're told to do so or not (such as a part of your job). There are just some things not worth getting upset about. But one of the reasons why I gave up on online RPing was the attitudes of people in charge.

Also, I watched police drama PSYCHO-PASS Season 1 first episode. I've been spoiled on it a little, but it looks cool. It is different when watching thoroughly. Also, it has an unsettling theme that made me think of myself.

Basically, in this show, if you take too much drugs or maybe drink too much, or have any hint of a troublesome mental illness, you have a death wish. Because members of the Crime Investigation will deem you as a "potential criminal" and will wipe you out. I say "think of myself" because sometimes I think we're better off without a select amount of people when there's no learning from the past. Say like compulsive lying? So if you're an obsessive compulsive lying? Or maybe a psychopath? You have to go to therapy or a ward?

Nasty, but it's true. Urobochi Gen obviously thought of it while writing this show. He's a really...dark guy. And there are definitely a couple people I won't miss.

And to make it worse, they get killed so brutally on the show [PSYCHO PASS]. Not sure how the fate of the hostage will turn out, if they tell me that is.

Rid of criminals? Because of latent mental level.

What about the people who I quoted up there? No, I'm not suggesting that they should die.

When you get older, they suggest confining you to a home or some kind of atmosphere that is not like you know of. That's saying you can't care for yourself any more and you're deteriorating.