Doggie

Note to self: DO not, DO NOT write a blog entry while I'm rushing to leave somewhere.

Now it looks like I wasn't making much sense OR I missed something. My mindset at the time was to express as much as I could.

Indeed. I did take time off. When my niece wasn't around, I cleaned house; I worked and babysat so much that, IMO, I neglected any heavy cleaning at home. Yet, I cleaned my workplace virtually every morning. It didn't seem fair to me. Once my niece came back, the mental burden returned. I lose patience quicker than usual; time off is time off, and I can't get over the thoughts of babysitting and not getting paid enough.

So why was I upset about work and why did I almost want to quit? When I returned from my break, Labor day went away and there was already some quitters. Even this week; then I see new faces quickly.

I felt a little better a few days ago because most co-workers take the time of their day to tell me that I do a good job and that "I work hard". But half the team doesn't seem to be the same way? Am I just wasting time? Sure, after you're used to your position tediously, you tend to get lax.

Was I just working out of desperation to avoid being fired? I wanted to enjoy my job, but I was getting influenced by my co-workers' negative energy. SO I felt like I was in a shitty, uninspiring place because I didn't have much higher to shoot, and I worked just because I had to. That's a problem with working kids, and yet they succeed so well for some reason, getting jobs with better pay.

Sure, customer service can be a pain, but so is constantly complaining, not trying your best and thinking of consequences.

Two weeks at least, I felt like crap. That's just how I am. I try to maintain an calm and understanding, but aren't I fragile?

So with these thoughts building up, Katsuki-san's thoughts were a shock. Thus, coincidence.

"Love myself". I believed her, but I didn't think it was something easy to follow. I nearly cried. I can feel like a loser so easily, but she can look at others and say simple things so that they can live on a path to aim for something.

But it's so hard. What should I love? Ambition? Living differently? Being naive? Admitting mistakes?

Inoue Kazuhiko's final message had to do with "thoughts of dream" and "keyword"; I can't really figure out Seki Tomokazu's but may be "not useless"; Nozawa Masako is "try your best!"; I can't get Chiba Shigeru, Hirano Fumi or Kamiya Akira's yet; Furukawa Toshio is the NEXT and LAST GUEST!

...but Katsuki-san master of intuitive, no stress style was "growth" and "love" ("daisuki" and "ai"). My poor chest.

Least according to CAREERLISM:

• Everyone has a different path towards success.


• Sometimes if we just sit back and listen, we may just find our answer.


• Stop thinking about “What If” and start saying “Why Not”.


• Failure is a new way of gaining something positive and growing stronger from the experience.


• Gaining a cultural experience can be key to helping you adapt to a more global community.


• “You” time is always important for growth.


• One act of kindness can go a long way.


• A major or degree is not a one size fits all in the job market.


• “GPA” is important; Goals, Perseverance, and Attitude.


• Change can be good even if it is scary to think about.

There are a couple of things I want to know:

- Where to effectively sell old game systems (ie: Nintendo 64, PS2) and its games?

- Where/how to work at home?

[ Gaming Status ]

It came a few days ago!. Everyone else is playing Pokemon X/Y; I'm always behind or under a rock. But I don't have the money. I can't get WiiU or 3DS or 2DS.

but I've always been behind or late because I don't plan correctly.

Makes me question how I'm living. Being a gamer enthusiast and occasional babysitter. If I had a family, I'd be screwed because we can't take life for granted.

Even if the number of monsters available are greatly reduced compared to the other games of the series, I can say that I have a lot to do. And I need a lot of time. I still don't like the Wii being sold short. MonHun Tri was a chance to break MonHun into a new home console outside of the PS series. But then, WiiU gets the good treatment.

Back to what I've experienced so far: Armors, weapons, quests, resources, and status that makes me have to check the manual and hunter notes maybe three to five times. Because it's redundant. Why do I need to know about how much decimal amount is in a gun's recoil? And there's three parts to a bowgun.

The weapon variety is pretty neat, but since I'm using a Wii Remote, I need a lot of practice, especially with the heavy weapons. It seems easy to control and it feels exciting to miss the monsters. They're actually pesky and that actually shows me that I have work to do. Many of the herbivores are swift, so it's a bit annoying to hunt small monsters with heavy weapons such as hammers and great swords.

And hitting a monster is satisfying too. I did so many battle cries while swinging a heavy sword. "TOH!" "URAAAH!" "GET IT!" There's this big smash you hear when you hit. I just recently tried out a small bowgun. Apparently, a gunner's pouch is separate from the blademaster pouch and you need to pack the former with BOTH ammo and useful items. In other words, the BM items don't transfer to gunnar pouch. I could be wrong.

Before deciding on getting MonHun Tri, I thought of becoming a gunner first. But the BOWGUN WAS TOO EXPENSIVE.

The lance is pretty cool.

Probably the most unnerving thing I've faced so far is the underwater system. K-sensei (Katsuki Masako) didn't like it either. In various games, going underwater really gives you a sense of being confined or in an unknown world. With spectacular visuals in gaming these days, that's a definite. I still have to work on it.

On the cover of the MonHun 3 box art is the water monster Lagiacrus (ラギアクルス), which you see early in the game UNFORTUNATELY. It is a demon. The darned thing actually scared me, AND I had a problem with the swimming controls. Especially if I panic. It's so bad that you have to carefully look through the unclear water WITH A DRAGON IN IT!, and make escape plans. Furthermore, while in Lagia's territory, you have to hunt another monster to get its items.

Scary, but unique feeling that I haven't felt before.

Sexy Degel and Kardia from THELOSTCANVAS.

Hello.

I really need to update my watchlist, especially tokusatsu and animation. Hades Sanc, Yukikaze, and Macross Plus needs to be added. Also, a third season of GARO is coming.

ATm, I don't have much time to say anything. My week was actually good; challenges ahead as I look up to a new job, or so I am hoping. You know, I think it is good to be a kid at heart. Not only you're easily inspired, but you're easily determined. I can't get rid of my like of games and animation, no matter how hard I try. Also, there's music, which reminds me.

Debby Boone. She has a commercial about making your face look younger. I never associated her signature song with looking younger or changing/lifting your face...

Speaaking of "kid", OMG game nostalgia. The Tales is returning, remastered!



I think this further shows me how genius the theme song is. As for the game itself, which was on Nintendo, I was never that good with it (lol).

A good last week, and I start off this week half accomplished and half discouraged. Sounds strange doesn't it? I was on a on-the-job evaluation for a couple of days and didn't make the cut because of physical weakness and pacing. Aside from that, I was told to have a great personality and that I pay attention to details. It was a lovely place too, people and atmosphere. I really wanted to work there; at least my resumes changes?

WHILE I understand this QUITE well and I carry no ill will, I'm a bit of a perfectionist, so I'm a little disappointed. I thought I just needed more time to make progress.

It was great to see niece overlord welcome me back when I returned.

Let me congratulate someone real quick: DANICA PATRICK! First woman to enter Pole Position in Daytona 500 qualifier!

I have to wonder. She has such strong physical and mental strength, despite being a racer. She isn't very tall and has little weight. I am similar to her even, and wanted to join the Sports Car club. Wouldn't my physique still be a problem?



GRRR!

Here's a song for her and me


Has nothing to do with encouragement or American football, but...it's still good. Gets me in a good mood. Apparently, it is a "reject" song?

HEAVY WINDS in Michigan

This entire week could be summed up with babysitting and dad, who was hospitalized again since Saturday. That guy is lucky and unlucky at the same time. Met him in the hospital a few times and he is doing better. Matter of fact, I thought I had to say goodbye to him because of talk about hospice. Not sure where that came from. Luckily, we were relieved quick, but he might need another operation.

Good grief...more surgery?

Niece has been with me throughout most of the week. (lol) Funny girl. She loves to sleep on me too, geez. A pleasant kid most of the time, but she's a bit rough and knows that crying can get her attention. I really wonder if my sister isn't that dense enough to know how much of a smartie pants her kid is.

Seiyuu Awards
The results of the 6th Seiyuu Awards (voice actors of Japan) were revealed. I am happy to see KEIKO TODA, Hirata Hiroaki, and Kenyuu Horiuchi winning. For Hirata, I never got into Tiger and Bunny for some reason, and I was psyched that Hirata got the main character. And how many times did I talk about Toda Keiko?

TODA, as a voice over, probably is best known as the symbolic ANPANMAN but he is mostly an actor and a singer. Also dubs Julia Roberts often (who is also popular and pretty). Oh, and quite gorgeous too.

I never thought that Kenyuu's versatility would be honored in this day of age, especially this soon.

Eguchi Takuya, who won New Actor Award, I think is in Gundam AGE now as ASEMU (photo above)!

AGE is fun. *Nod* Sakurai Takahiro won too oh, the fangirls. Winning the kids/family award is OTANI IKUE! KAwakami Tomoko was honored too...

Work
I had an interview for a marketing business, but didn't work out. Interview can mean so much, it sucks that it can be a weak point to many people. Of course, dad tells me to have more faith. The first step is to know that you were told to be "considered a candidate". That should help me at least.

What the hell NARUTO (comic) / Annoying stuff
OK! I'm actually a little annoyed as to how some comics can make me feel retarded in comprehension. There's Nabari no Ou, which feels to me to be a lot of complexity in the story line (or is it the translated dialogue?). The BLEACH fanbase makes me wonder if I'm stupid for actually liking the comic because I see so much complaining. I really enjoy D.grayman, but find myself going to Wiki a lot to understand some plot elements.

And now there's Naruto.

The concept of the Uchiha clan is simple: Power and hatred. Itachi has been Sasuke's center villain for a long time. But sometimes I wonder if Kishimoto gets coerced into retconning by his assistants.

Sure, Shounen doesn't have to make sense and it tries to teach us a lesson. Ask yourself, if someone killed your family and asked you to gain power, what would you do?

( Highlight to read about recent chapters )

I guess without ANY of this, Naruto wouldn't have a foil.

Still, I have to keep reading to find out what's going to happen. It's getting good in some areas. And I frankly don't get the dislike of Uzumaki Naruto himself. he has a nice crazy. He's stupid, he's overpowered, but he knows better. He doesn't respond to grudges or other negative emotions.

Oh, and Zero No Tsukaima is annoying me a little too. Maybe I'm really not into harem...

Another annoying thing: CYBER FORMULA SAGA!

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I think shitty SUBTITLES and BAD ART/ANIMATION aged me 30 years. And don't get me started with Hayato. Although, deathlike knows how to add in humor when it comes to this.

Before SAGA, I finished CF Zero Realm which had some intense racing. I should nominate SekiToshi for Seiyuu of the Month of seiyuu next time.

I need to work on my tags

Happy Saturday! Still no Part 2 of the meme just yet. Just something I want to get out of my body.

First I'd like to say that is it a NICE DAY! Sunny and a bit warm, the snow is melting a little. It is March, Spring is not that far away! But it is Michigan, maybe it's setting up for some more nasty weather.

Work
"Life is worth preserving."

Alright, I temporarily cleared away from online gaming (except on some computer games when no one has to push me to do this-or-that) to work on job hunting easier. And frankly, a forum I've been going on actively has been getting me irritated.

My current thoughts and problems of job search: I'm too sullen to pick up the phone. I keep noticing that I don't have the drive to work, maybe because I dislike it? Or I don't like interview? And people can use online means to captivate you easily while you're desperate. How long is one pushed and pressed about "finding a job"?

Why work? When there are others who need it more than I do? I feel sorry for some families, parents, unemployed with a home, even the homeless. And we must surround ourselves on services, which status is currently in the crapper.

I try not to let it bother me since it is always a fight and that's a test we must face.

Maplestory
http://www.mapletip.com/
http://strategywiki.org/wiki/MapleStory/

I finally returned to...Maplestory after a long long time. For a second, I thought I lost my Page (character class). Leveling up is QUITE difficult. I'm surprised I managed to level up twice in one day. Okay, to be fair, I way close to one level when I resumed playing.nI think I speak for the majority of players. Graphics are beautiful, nice ideas, nice adventure and map (I got an explorer medal), not interactivity with players, but gah @ the quests and leveling. I'm sweating at the thought of doing Jump quests again.

But it's not just that. Sometimes you have to go half across the map and sometimes hunt or pass monsters that are a way higher level than you. I was in the "Toy Town" (name escapes me) with level 40-50 aliens and I'm only level 30. I would have to climb the stupid tower again in order to get back to Victoria Island and the only way that I could was through the Aran teleport card. GAH! Stupid Toy land. I'm staying in Victoria.

My goal is to become a Paladin! That is a LOOOOOOOOONG way.


Recent "Katekyo Hitman REBORN" comic:
...Is HE still bleeding?!?!

Dragonball Kai Animation (Ep..where am I? 42?)
They really censored... a particular death, but it still felt rather strong with the acting and all. Additional note, I'm really behind a few shows.

YouTube and Gaming Questions
Someone asked me what are some of my most favorite games, and who are my top 3 game characters?

Quite tough...Sonic the Hedgehog would obviously be one and I'm sure I know why. "Favorites" should be considered games/chars that captivate and influence you the most and I remember in old days that I used to make Sonic art, enjoy the music, and even had a couple of walkthrough books. And speed! Speed! Blue and red!


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Maybe what job seekers need is....LOVE!

Everything starts off a bit rocky with the monthly sickness...

I'm trying to find the channel to see the New York New Year countdown, but I'm watching Fred Astair. Feel a tap coming on?

My TV is terrible. MY TV.

Wow, another decade. That is a long time now that I think about it, I felt like I've changed a lot.

Trying to recollect what's been going on since 2000 would take forever! Of course, there was the 9-11 attacks that shook the world. It had sprout an anger and a sense of justice in the majority of us and other things. Also,it felt like a cryptic message to a scary future since it was a emergency number in North Amerca after all. I have family in New York, but they were fine.

And I can't say much has happened in 2009, or I thought it was boring. I know some things that caught my eyes and ears. I am a fan of the Transformers Series and was shocked to know that a movie trilogy was being made, and that animation and games were influencing cinema making quite a bit. Which also reminds me, I've been seeing a lot of CGI in Y2K films. Computer generated anything...I seem to weak in watching.

I didn't begin online RPGing in these years, but the ambition to it grew. That's a long story in itself. It almost made me hate D&D entirely.

I started to drive a little late too. I also had to get glasses for the first time thanks to be failing the vision test. I remember being upset and I've been nervous about my eyesight every since. I recently got some new ones. Hmm, am I wrong for a being a little against youth driving these days?

In 2009, I get charmed by Katsuki Masako's appearance.

More later?

The Fun Stuff
I make a revolution in gaming, especially with Nintendo games. I return to series that I never thought I would, due to me having trouble with them, such as Legend of Zelda and Metroid.

Resolutions
I am going to work on watch TALES OF series OVAs. That is one my goal for next year. Another one is ATTEMPTING to be a bit nicer to my sister, who is in High School. Actually, recently, I've been calm to her...because she's kinda hopelessly naive.

I seem to be losing tolerance towards teens.

Speaking of sister, didn't I say I got her to play the Scary Maze game? It was funny and a family memory? Nothing mean, a funny laughing moment.

I have more, but I'll come back soon. let me make some tea or cocoa.

TV
Effiel Tower (France) looks great

Mister Carridine, R.I.P
I don't like the idea of Mr. Carridine being called just a "Kill Bill" star (at least on AOL). It's just more to him than that and he was the son of a popular actor. Matter of fact, when Kill Bill came out, I was surprised to know that he was in it - AND as the lover of Uma Thurman....L-O-L. I read what seemed to be the first version of the script before I watched the movie, and enjoyed it. The idea of suicide made me a little sad and annoyed. It just didn't make sense to me. Now there are these new details, and um...I want to think that it was probably homicide and not something...playful.

Definately a bad year for entertainment. Speaking of dying...

Filthy Rumor from January
I don't like this. Apparently back in December of 08 or January of 09, there was this article posted online saying that Tohru Furuya had passed away. It looked genuine too.

And even though it was a long while ago, it made my heart hurt reading or online translating those comments from the fans. They were saying it was a lie, they wanted sources, they couldn't sleep, etc. There was also no news on him dying so of course Furuya was okay?

That was not cool. Apparently, it was Furuya's parent who passed?

U.S President
Which reminds me, I had a dream like 3-4 weeks ago about the President being assassinated. It was scary and was all over the radio and TV. Even asked my father in the dream what happened. Just to let you, what I dream about doesn't come true so far. However, there is currently a manhunt for someone who is aspiring to kill the President.

I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

I did the right thing?
Was reccommended to check out Michigan.gov and found something called Rehab services for working. Went to an orientation for work statistics and to ask for help. This economy really is bad is it? But I will find some progress.