Week's Highlights

Revelation.
I was sick through most of this week but finally starting to feel better, aside from ANOTHER cough. It's hard to say if it was from the cold or something else like last time.

1.) Anyways, still job trouble. I've been thinking part-time, one or two. (rubs chin) I found this dog walking job BUT CAN'T CONTACT IT. That ticks me off. I mean, it's so I-DEAL. I like dogs and dogs can ease up to strangers. Coming around daily, picking them up; I know by experience that they seem to recognize familiar faces and react differently to particular people and get mood swings?. I swear those animals have empathy.

but I worry on how they'll, the dogs, cooperate and how much the customer will depend on me when taking care of their dog. Like, I'm supposed to be walk them but what if they want me to go further, like take care of it when it's sick? And WHAT IF it gets sick? I thought it would be cool to walk bigger dogs with thicker coats to handle the coat like Huskies and German Shepards. And the smaller ones? I think Chihuahua and Dachshund are ill-tempered?

I think I've been disinterested in work lately, and it just didn't add well with me getting sick so like one-third of a month passed. struggling is good? With the skills I have, I supposedly fit a person who works in office but what about something else? How am I going to add more to the resume in such short time.

I was working on that Shinobi fanfic I mentioned earlier So while doing it, I've realized something that I've totally forgotten -- I like to be creative.

After some practice, I can do things like height/weight (metric or not), bloodtype, zodiac and ability perimeters in no time. However, it is self-taught along side reading and forgotten class lessons. Really, I'm starting to think that receptionist or some office work is not my kind of thing. I felt happiness when doing brochures; I was bored half to death in that medical Detroit office, despite meeting nice people. I'd bear it but it's not my thing.

(sigh) I think I've been taking this the wrong way and still need more help

Speaking of bear...

Not into Fame...at all
Home is a bitch.

2.) Youth must be taunting me. How the fuck do kids get into these celebrity events? And So easily I might add? And I have to go through toil and effort just to work? I'm talking about my sister. She joined up some pagent thing and now she's getting so much attention and money spent on her on clothes and interview. My mom yells at her a lot and my sister doesn't take anything seriously, which annoys me. She just have to folow siple directions and can't take care of her clothes, bought or old ones oh how she trashes her room. She's not allowed to eat in there and she snaps at my parents about "I wanna be a model! I wanna be a model!" Probably not knowing of the consequences of it all.

HOW did someone like her get through? That's what pisses me off. I swear my parents answer to her too much. I ask for little things, I try not to look high and always troubled. She just want people to pay attention to her and I'm going with that idea you don't talk to a working woman for 3 hours about toilet shit, internet, etc. And why the hell does my mom let her get away with that?.

And then what's going to happen further along the way? I'm not the type to handle fame. I naddition, young people handling celebrity business have it rough.

And speaking of me, where the hell am I supposedly "required" to go today (Sat) that's related to THIS! It better not be.

2.) WHY do they insist of taking me to Church? Or are they?

I usually like to chill and do what I like on weekends.

To be honest, religion has been pissing me off lately.....

Bad spelling is annoying

First "missile" now "pageant". I hate it when I do that.

Hoh, I was gone all day, but it was really nice. I'll talk about it tommorow.

And NNWM looks interesting, but THOSE Requirements?!

National Novel Writing Month is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to novel writing. Participants begin writing November 1. The goal is to write a 175-page (50,000-word) novel by midnight, November 30.

Are you kidding!?