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Old ladies making old ladies cry

She is my freakin hero...!~

A follow up of a previous entry. When they said "instruction", that's what I was expecting. Turns out she is quite sensitive and cooperative with a "stress relief" method and a positive, free way of thinking.

I can't absorb all the details (will report my heart out here when ready.)< because I'm still so amazed, but there's one thing that really sticks out from the entire program. Each instructor, at the end of the program, gives a final message. This isn't the entire thing, but this is the gist of it: "I love myself .... everyone, please love yourselves as well."

I went crazy.

"What the...?! Why?" Why did she say this?! And all of a sudden?!

It's like I loved her more. No, I was completely touched, maybe abnormally so. I nearly cried like I watched a Disney death scene or the like because I could not believe it. I wanted to bury my face into a chest; apparently hugging is a little outrageous in Japan but I felt that way.

I was shocked and touched because not just what she said was right but because it's was a total coincidence with my recent feelings, and I have trouble following such a message. it was a completely simple message.

For the past two weeks, I was just upset with myself. Even as I type, I still kind of am. Not AS much as before, but still confused. I took time off work and it's like I became more upset admist relaxing (or I was supposed to). I wanted to quit my job too because I couldn't get over the idea that I was where I was now due to being incompetent and poor, and I couldn't brainstorm over how to fix it. I'm ambitious, but am I working to hard for a low wage? Am I caring too much? In fact, I have a notice template saved on word document if I came to the point that I wanted to leave work. So, I had those kind of black thoughts.

I told myself that there can be a light at the end of the tunnel, believe in oneself, etc.

Despite that, I was not self-satisfied. I was still broke, and you can see more in my locked "Doggie story" entries. No need to talk about it again. So why does this still gather above my head to bother me? Because I feel like I'm not sharp enough to find a solution. Is it friends/social interaction? Is it patience?

So when I saw that message, I was unexpectedly filled with emotion. I still thought "how", at the same time, I was deeply touched and surprised. It could've been anyone else who said it, but I was overwhelmed this time.

And for some reason, I felt an underlying dread that something was going to happen to her.
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I think... I finally understand what my dad meant... when he told me he wanted me to be strong like you, Link. He didn't mean strength as in lifting stuff. He meant strength as in courage

A quote from the Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess.

If I recall, a touching scene.
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I think... I finally understand what my dad meant... when he told me he wanted me to be strong like you, Link. He didn't mean strength as in lifting stuff. He meant strength as in courage

A quote from the Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess.

If I recal, a touching scene.


Nov. 19th, 2014 06:33 pm
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"We don't reject writers; we reject pieces of paper with typing on them."

"Don't stay mad and decide you are the victim of incompetence and stupidity. If you do, you'll learn nothing and you'll never become a writer."

"Don't make the opposite mistake and decide the story is worthless. Editors differ, and so do tastes, and so do magazines' needs. Try the story somewhere else."
~ Isaac Asimov (3 quotes)

"Even though I thought my work was pretty crappy, somehow it got picked up serialized in some really popular venues. So to all of you out there who wants to be comic artists, don't give up. You can do it."
~ Takeuchi Naoko
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I like to think that I am doing the right thing.

Good, when it comes to supporting others, I am useful. When it comes to supporting myself, I am steps behind, perhaps not completely because of my own faults. There are things that I am ignorant about, and can't fully understand for some reason. I gain assurance easily when I read. I told myself that I'd get wiser and willing to learn, fill in whatever cavities I have in my head, when older.

I also told myself that this happens to other people and there is light at the tunnel's end.

But I am naturally afraid of time.

I think this is my fourth week babysitting. I feel like I'm being dragged down by watching a kid that's not mine and working too much. However, the latter is helpful for us...for now. It's not much; I can't afford a new car or an apartment's DP, and that makes me feel like trash. So what does this situation bring? Feeling a desperation for money and thinking ahead.

Again, light at the end of tunnel.

Trying to look at it in a way if my niece was my own kid, because frankly it's almost like that. If that's the case, I also want time for hobbies. She is so bossy, so pushy, and of course so curious (but that's not a problem) that she prevents me from even reading my books. I am usually up and down.

So what is going to happen? What do I need to do?

The usual day-to-day routine is
- Turn on children's channel. Won't watch for five mins
- Always asking to watch music videos on youtube (So if I did online classes?)
- Play with her gaming tablet
- Climbing on me
- Cleaning up toys; bringing them back, dragging the car, etc

Taxing. And she's fussy. I'm for someone else, but not for myself. Aside from that, a cute smart girl who likes being with me. That's enough to kick her parent in the head.
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This week was dumb pedestrians, sickness, and "I want someone to die already" week, but yesterday I was a little more aggravated.

But I can look at the situation two ways. Friday was just one of those days where I feel unappreciated, adding to how irritated I was already from both health and niece's (no, she's fine) situation. I can:

1.) Continue to assume that a few people are just too high-minded.

2.) Perk up, laugh, and just assume there isn't a problem. Maybe I'll look different from their POV (either as an idiot or someone more likable). but idiots are likable.

Also, Thursday, guess what's here:

It is remarkable! Only after four pages, I am immersed. I can already feel the passion behind 25 years of work. That is what gets me easily interested. However, in the beginning, there is a section for "Skyward Sword", its world and characters, and apparently it represents the start of the series that we're so familiar of. Like it's Genesis LoZ. I haven't played the game yet so I'm kinda hesitant to read it. I put the book up since I still have a couple of others to read.

I'm near the end of Pirates Latitude. I can't spoil it I want to smack someone? but what a fun example of adventure.

Not that far in Yukikaze. General (Brigadier?) Cooley is often referred to his "old lady", since this was the military, I didn't really expect her to look a little pretty? I was thinking a little older for some reason (lol). Obviously older than Rei of course.

I probably should rest more.
Sooner or later, different icons and my watchlist needs to be updated with Buddy Complex, Tokkyuger, etc.

I didn't have much to say about Sochi.

And I didn't care for the Oscars either. I was upset Sunday.


Jun. 5th, 2013 06:35 pm
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Video of otani ikue (大谷育江).

GET IN MY BOSOM!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"Kids can change the world...and so can adults."

The prequel, "I got invited by...the white has people." Lol, his voice. So cute:
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I wanna show this again because I love it. Well Mr. Owl, last year I wasn't that nice on myself, or others even.

I did this for 2011, and just for the sake of blogging I want to reflect on last year. I'm having lag so I might not type much. Let's me get the morose stuff out the way.

[ Personal ]
I lost someone important, and while I attempt to endure it and pursue a forward-thinking life, I don't think I did my best. I found myself babysitting often too, which isn't that much of a problem.

More importantly, I've been harshly criticizing myself. Attacking my memory, and believing that I severely lack critical thinking (and being unable to debate), because apparently it's a crime to be inquisitive. And when I do get excited, I do tend to ask a lot of questions even if I should know the answer. Even if the answer is easy.

But knowledge is parallel to life experiences, so maybe I can blame lack of experience.

[ The World ]
Hurricane Sandy ravaged the Caribbean and even eastern U.S and part of Canada.

While many shootings happen across U.S.A, the theater attack in Aurora, Colorado, and the heartless massacre at Sandy Hook Elm. school in Newtown, CO. raised questions about what to do.

SOPA, last year Jan, caused Wikipedia to blackout in protest against anti-piracy. Also, sharing sites such as Megaupload was removed.

oh yeah...oppa gangnam style. Interesting.

Lance Armstrong...just lance Armstrong. sports history being wiped off the planet.


- After years of wonder, in achieved the GOOKINGSWORD from Breath of Fire 3. Also, other items. Reliving the game was great.

- Many Successive in Monster Rancher 2

- In Mario kart Wii, I achieved golds in 50 - 150 cc, all courses. Mirror Mode was unlocked so i have a new challenge ahead for me.

I continue with my Gundam Style! journey Video joke aside, Gundam AGE developed quite a bit in 2012, and I watched it until the ending. I also watched MS IGLOO 1 & 2, and I began the infamous Zeta Gundam.

Along with that, I finally lit my fire for Saint Seiya after thinking on it for many years. So now, I'm watching the classic series (half of it), Omega, reading and watching LostCanvas, and I'll watch Hades Sanctuary. There's a lot of comics such as Episode G and Next Dimension. I'm not sure on what to do.

I finished the tokusatsu series Kamen Rider Fourze and began Kamen Rider Wizard. Maybe I'll develop more love for tokusatsu and watch more Kamen Rider series and even Super Sentai fully. This year I believe is the new dinosaur Sentai.

Finished the wonderful Eureka Seven series.

Trying to read Pirate Latitudes, but I keep stopping.

BLEACH is just wow.

Finished the cyber formula series with the ovas (and its crappy subtitles).

We say goodbye to Aono Takeshi, W. Houston, Dick Clark, etc. I have entries on them under 2012.


may have more.
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I came across this story, and remembered when I talked about mental scars. Maybe I should show this story to my mom too.

There once was a little girl who had a bad temper.

There once was a little girl who had a bad temper. Her mother gave her a bag of nails and told her that every time she lost her temper, she must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the girl had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as she learned to control her anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. She discovered it was easier to hold her temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the girl didn't lose her temper at all. She told her mother about it and the mother suggested that the girl now pull out one nail for each day that she was able to hold her temper. The days passed and the young girl was finally able to tell her mother that all the nails were gone. The mother took her daughter by the hand and led her to the fence.

She said, "You have done well, my daughter, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one."

You can put a knife in a person and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say "I'm sorry", the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us.

Those last paragraphs.

Where are they...
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"Totally umprompted, our amazing 10 year-old decided to write this letter to Barack Obama, and it made Triton Klugh and I so unbelievably proud. And maybe we teared up a little.

I've refrained from all the political posts, but this is just too close to home to ignore. This is not about President Obama - it's about what's right. So frankly, if you don't agree with the innocent, heartfelt and surprisingly straightforward position of my 10 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER, then please unfriend me because we don't actually belong connected here in the first place."

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I was going through my blog calender, and some of the old entries made me remember something. So, I went to Youtube.

I am so happy!

In one entry I said "Gimme all your money, give back the money!", and I found a video that shows where I got that from! TA-DA! (best to watch the whole thing ;D)

One of my favorite game shows was PRESS YOUR LUCK!" Gotta love youtube. Probably the only game that has given me tears (at least, from my memory) because of its tension. Especially at the ending of the game. The remake called "WHAMMY"

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I have two days of the seiyuu meme that I have to do, but I'm blogging about something else.

I define "rant" as criticism with extreme emotion. I'm not that angry today though, but I'm just ....bloated?

I'm surprised that it's Friday; nothing happened last night, but I felt like something needed to get out of my system.

I guess it started on Plurk where I was introducing myself to those who recently added me to their friend list. As I did, my roleplaying game history crossed my mind. When you're young, you can develop faster, but you don't have much to stand on. Not much knowledge and comprehension. Online, I started off in D&D; years later, I entered text-based play-by-post games. The majority of my RPing was online; but, I enjoyed writing before that.

And it was just a terrible experience. The beginnings were terrible; chatroom was terrible.

Read more... )

All of this was inspired by some uneasy thought I had last night. We should prevent "psychological scars". Why do you think people grow up as jerks because they learn that from others. They end up unforgiving, and assume that payback and showing off your chest is better than anything.

I really have a trigger for pompousness. For arrogance. If I want to thank those guys from the online RP games for something, that is to learn not behave the same way.

But this isn't restricted to just "gaming", but communities as a whole. Maybe that's why I was bothered last night because I received too many online abuse. Fighting for my defense, the result doesn't end up in my favor.

Now I believe that I can't debate or think out of the box, that I can't express my thoughts safely, that my words are too confusing, that I have little logic, and that I can't fix any of it.

Or maybe I just hate to lose, and being told that I'm wrong, virtually all the time.

When I say the words "maybe" and "but" too much, it shows a lot of uncertainty.

What is right and wrong?
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"If there's no talent, you have to try harder."

You're right, aren't you Midorin?
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In early November, 3-and-a-half-year-old Duncan saved his best friend's life.

Duncan, a boxer, pawed and barked at his owner, Scott Dunn, until the man awoke to find the house full of smoke, according to the Atlanta Journal-Constitution. Dunn was able to escape to his truck, but heroic Duncan died in the fire.

We often hear stories of life-saving pets like Duncan, but what compels these faithful animals to perform such heroic acts -- love for their owners or their own survival instincts?
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Ehhh~ Well, she's apparently doing great. She woke up; according to phone calls, she was being more enthusiastic when receiving visitors. I saw her this morning when she had the tracheal tube >_<; no kissing.. But it was removed a bit later in the day and she can talk now. I'll go see her tomorrow morning.

then she's getting some serious kissing service.

Eh...she was really in bad shape.

A lot of cleaning is in order before she returns home next week. I can rest easy now, I hope.

GUNDAM AGE & Macross
Because I got sick, I had to catch up on two episodes of GUNDAM AGE (didn't get back to Fourze yet). It still feels like an average show. It hasn't hooked me yet, but I guess I'm still going on because of my curiosity. I wonder what it needs. The AGE System is cool though. And Wolf (OnoD) has freakin' dog hair ears! LOOK!

I also watched the second Macross Frontier movie. It's sad IMO, but really fun. I think they made the characters cooler, especially Alto. Or maybe, much more tolerable.


I don't remember why Rina Aiuichi retired. Meeeh! >__<; Why? Sickness?


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