doggiedynasty: (Super Cry)
Old ladies making old ladies cry

She is my freakin hero...!~

A follow up of a previous entry. When they said "instruction", that's what I was expecting. Turns out she is quite sensitive and cooperative with a "stress relief" method and a positive, free way of thinking.

I can't absorb all the details (will report my heart out here when ready.)< because I'm still so amazed, but there's one thing that really sticks out from the entire program. Each instructor, at the end of the program, gives a final message. This isn't the entire thing, but this is the gist of it: "I love myself .... everyone, please love yourselves as well."

I went crazy.

"What the...?! Why?" Why did she say this?! And all of a sudden?!

It's like I loved her more. No, I was completely touched, maybe abnormally so. I nearly cried like I watched a Disney death scene or the like because I could not believe it. I wanted to bury my face into a chest; apparently hugging is a little outrageous in Japan but I felt that way.

I was shocked and touched because not just what she said was right but because it's was a total coincidence with my recent feelings, and I have trouble following such a message. it was a completely simple message.

For the past two weeks, I was just upset with myself. Even as I type, I still kind of am. Not AS much as before, but still confused. I took time off work and it's like I became more upset admist relaxing (or I was supposed to). I wanted to quit my job too because I couldn't get over the idea that I was where I was now due to being incompetent and poor, and I couldn't brainstorm over how to fix it. I'm ambitious, but am I working to hard for a low wage? Am I caring too much? In fact, I have a notice template saved on word document if I came to the point that I wanted to leave work. So, I had those kind of black thoughts.

I told myself that there can be a light at the end of the tunnel, believe in oneself, etc.

Despite that, I was not self-satisfied. I was still broke, and you can see more in my locked "Doggie story" entries. No need to talk about it again. So why does this still gather above my head to bother me? Because I feel like I'm not sharp enough to find a solution. Is it friends/social interaction? Is it patience?

So when I saw that message, I was unexpectedly filled with emotion. I still thought "how", at the same time, I was deeply touched and surprised. It could've been anyone else who said it, but I was overwhelmed this time.

And for some reason, I felt an underlying dread that something was going to happen to her.
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Least according to CAREERLISM:

  • Everyone has a different path towards success.

  • Sometimes if we just sit back and listen, we may just find our answer.

  • Stop thinking about “What If” and start saying “Why Not”.

  • Failure is a new way of gaining something positive and growing stronger from the experience.

  • Gaining a cultural experience can be key to helping you adapt to a more global community.

  • “You” time is always important for growth.

  • One act of kindness can go a long way.

  • A major or degree is not a one size fits all in the job market.

  • “GPA” is important; Goals, Perseverance, and Attitude.

  • Change can be good even if it is scary to think about.

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I think... I finally understand what my dad meant... when he told me he wanted me to be strong like you, Link. He didn't mean strength as in lifting stuff. He meant strength as in courage


A quote from the Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess.

If I recall, a touching scene.

Quotes

Nov. 19th, 2014 06:33 pm
doggiedynasty: Doggie's crescent moon (Doggie)
"We don't reject writers; we reject pieces of paper with typing on them."

"Don't stay mad and decide you are the victim of incompetence and stupidity. If you do, you'll learn nothing and you'll never become a writer."

"Don't make the opposite mistake and decide the story is worthless. Editors differ, and so do tastes, and so do magazines' needs. Try the story somewhere else."
~ Isaac Asimov (3 quotes)

"Even though I thought my work was pretty crappy, somehow it got picked up serialized in some really popular venues. So to all of you out there who wants to be comic artists, don't give up. You can do it."
~ Takeuchi Naoko
doggiedynasty: (120% Enthusiasm)
Japanese Sonic CD and Sonic 2 boxart has this quote:

"To live a life of power, you must have faith that what you believe is right, even if others tell you you're wrong. The first thing you must do to live a life of power is to find courage. You must be ready to reach beyond the boundaries of Time itself. And to do that, all you need is the will to take that first step..."
doggiedynasty: (The Ban Stare)
I knew exactly what I was talking about?

Customers Suck

Lazy [bleeps] who don't put away...

Electric scooters and warning

Awful links, but express my mind sometimes.

No, not about laziness, even though I know how they feel, but about methods.

and some freakin' how I found a racist site connected with this If you put a warning sign on something, but there's the common example of those who don't follow the rules, then maybe the sign/tag is pointless? Maybe, maybe not, but you have to set an example for some.

But if there's one thing we all do, if you can get away with anything more than once, and without injury, you can dismiss warnings.

It's been a cool week recently. Cool, and plenty of rain. I see people who drive to the store with their own fancy electric carts; however, there are the ones inside the store that are used for indoors only. Or so that is what it says.

Whatever the hazard is for using indoor kart in the opposite way, I guess the hazard for using indoor karts oppositely is required to be thought out by the kart operator and the store associates.

Those karts can barely contain power, and can get caught outside dead in any distance from the store. Some people take the cart to the bank. It's not a car. And what if it rains and gets stuck outside and drenched?

I can get electrocuted you know? Plus, the electro-karts are considerably few in number. And they are no faster than humans of walking speed. Or maybe that's just my opinion. If you take the cart outside, you'll have to emphasize more on using safety techniques. And you can't move out of the way if a car operator is not careful, especially during rush hour.

But yes, I always get that stare like I'm a buffoon because I wonder over rules or I accept the less popular opinion.

More
Did I mention that I was reading the Sailor Moon comic?

Which made me wonder about the remake and the changes over the anime, which I'm losing memory of the more I read the comic. Because, the comic is quite different, like with the pacing and what happens in the Dark Moon Kingdom. Heck, it's even more sappy.

I can't talk anything past pre-R reason just yet. Geez, each chapter feels so long.

Kamen Rider Wizard is almost over and it still feels like a big mystery. The suspense.

VID TIME!
Maybe you better not eat anything while watching this:

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ughban30


Well, I feel a little bad.

I watch a lot of crime documentary when bored, and when the police interrogate people who were involved in selling drugs or shooting, they sometimes behave like they're sorry or they didn't mean to kill (ie: bystanders). Of course, the police won't accept it, especially if they lie, which seems to happen a lot.

Anyways, I should try and avoid highly-opinionated entries for a while. Like I said before, doesn't make me look good and I don't like being angry. This doesn't mean I'll take back what I said. I dislike peer pressure, I dislike sex as a very careless tool to prove self-worth, I dislike it when children are in potential danger because of the actions of others, including parents. Call me misogynistic, call me racist, that's okay.

Which reminds me, due to the recently Connecticut shooting, the "violent video game is a problem" discussion escalates again. Never thought of killing anyone. However, I kind of fear becoming frustrating with a game, when it gets too difficult. Or how about when it's too addicting? That's my main problem, not violence. I always say, "if you want to break the law, do it on Grand Theft Auto. That's all". Don't emulate it IRL; be responsible.

Years ago, I think I heard in the news that some kid killed his parents because he liked to play HALO. I wonder if I can find the article again to reconfirm.

As for me, tons of cleaning before Christmas. That's my Doggie Week -- tons of cleaning. When you have a nice broom, sweeping feels so comfortable. Cleaning also feels rewarding when done. Because of the niece being around, and the house construction, I didn't make much time to clean.

Also, got a new TV. I fear for my eyesight.

(NSFW. Warning for language...and LOUD AUDIO)
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Not really "Ugly side".

I'm awake because I have to babysit a day prior to when the niece was supposed to come, so I'm a little ticked.

My mind is just full.

After a little sleep, I feel a bit better compared to yesterday. However, it's only because I slept; I still feel lost. I'm just disappointed after pledging that I'd accept myself for what I am.

Anyways, I watched the KIDS REACT version of Amanda Todd video. I think I've only seen about four similar videos where bullied kids express their feelings through flash cars. Like I said before, I'm not into watching them because I dislike bullying (and pitying), and I'm not into hurting oneself or committing suicide.

You're probably thinking it's wrong for me to say that I dislike pity. Myself personally, I don't like being pitied. I like to be alone and contemplate because I feel that things will get better and there are good people out there. That's all. Besides, in many cases, people are bullied for little to no reason.

Was Todd bullied before High School?

The Kids's Reactions were quite amazing. I agree with a lot of what they say; I hope they've learned a lesson, and what one girl said couldn't be anymore true -- "Those are not your friends".

Todd did nothing to deserve what happened. There are cruel people in the world. Why? How do people end up like bullies or quite self-important? I don't know.

It's not like everyone doesn't feel sadness. If we didn't feel sadness, it'd be problematic. At one point, I took medicine for depression. Apparently ADs softens that part of your brain that causes these inhibiting factors.

That's not gonna shield me from problems or make me pretend that it's not there. So I'm supposed to be a drug addict to avoid depression? Something that couldn't be helped? Akin to morphine for pain? Because it gives you a better living? I didn't like the idea. ADs didn't make me think better or remember better, it didn't stop me from making mistakes, and more importantly -- it didn't cure my disease.

Because it wasn't a sickness that developed over life, and it's something I had to live with, I didn't feel that things would end up better if I died.

Maybe that can be said about all sicknesses. Killing myself never crossed my mind; you/re probably thinking "Maybe you don't remember", but I do. Never thought about it, never attempted it, because I felt like things would get better. And one thing I despise seeing is family sad or crying, especially my own parents.

Matter of fact, part of my contempt for Stink-Pest stems from that.

I simply thought that I have too much to live for. But still...

Maybe I haven't fully appreciated Aspie.

Maybe getting a radio show is a good idea.

Or maybe I should do a response/anti-bully vid. Of course, not without a notebook.

There was something else I wanted to talk about but I don't remember.

Maybe later in the day: Doggie Week and Doggie Watchlist.
doggiedynasty: (This-is-bull!)
Did't I freakin' say I didn't like psychological scars?

Y'know, if I'm a big fool, just let me know right this instant.

Because, AGAIN, AGAIN, it's really making me angry when I'm being told to "think". As if, I am unable to do so properly.

And it happens too much. So now, in order to cope, I need to research autistic spectrum again.

It's not like I asked to be ignorant (who isn't?), or to see things the wrong way, or to miss out on details. Nor did I ask to have mixed up grammar, or something of the sort.
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I came across this story, and remembered when I talked about mental scars. Maybe I should show this story to my mom too.

There once was a little girl who had a bad temper.

There once was a little girl who had a bad temper. Her mother gave her a bag of nails and told her that every time she lost her temper, she must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the girl had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as she learned to control her anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. She discovered it was easier to hold her temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the girl didn't lose her temper at all. She told her mother about it and the mother suggested that the girl now pull out one nail for each day that she was able to hold her temper. The days passed and the young girl was finally able to tell her mother that all the nails were gone. The mother took her daughter by the hand and led her to the fence.

She said, "You have done well, my daughter, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one."

You can put a knife in a person and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say "I'm sorry", the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us.


Those last paragraphs.

Where are they...
doggiedynasty: Doggie's crescent moon (Ninja Dog)
This forgiveness BS.

Sometimes...that's what I think, I dislike forgiveness because it is challenging. Should I forgive someone who is a compulsive liar and a deceitful person?

It's Sunday, so that means, Sunday is Church. In the Bible, Jesus Christ was flesh and blood, walking on Earth; he was born like a human and was the most humble person ever. He could forgive because he had the power to change people. Those who changed are the ones who ask for it and bowed to Jesus.

But...I am not Jesus.

Being less angry would make me healthy, but I hate it when I'm seen as a bad person because I'm distrustful.

I also dislike it when you betray trust. What should I do?

One thing is needed to change your character is dedication. Those men and woman who were called sinners in the Bible, they dedicated themselves to one person.

Things may be...more "difficult" now. Or maybe less mystical, but I yet a reason to trust this one person. Now after many years of tension.
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No way I can be a Navy SEALS; matter of fact, females can't take part in Navy Seals. I don't want to enlist into them military, but these are still some good tips.

LINK: http://www.military.com/military-fitness/health/top-ten-list-to-stay-motivated-and-build-mental-toughness?ESRC=recruit.nl


1 – Get your workout over with
2 – Jam Out
3 – Name it and Tame it
4 – Performance Cue
5 – Even when you do not feel like exercising
6 – Have a workout partner
7 – Know what work is
8 – Understanding Fitness
9 – Change it up
10 - Never let go of a dream
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LINK: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/03/05/taylor-sauer-died-while-driving-and-facebooking_n_1322727.html?ncid=txtlnkushpmg00000034

Taylor Sauer knew facebooking while driving was a bad idea.

The 18-year-old college student said so in her last status update: "I can't discuss this now. Driving and facebooking is not safe! Haha."

At the time, Sauer was driving 80 mph from the Utah State University campus in Logan to visit her folks in Caldwell, Idaho, and was passing the time on the four-hour drive by messaging her friend about the Denver Broncos, according to MSNBC.com

Moments after her last update, she crashed her car into a tanker truck that was going 15 mph up a hill and was killed instantly....
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Makes you want to get a pet bird...
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"If there's no talent, you have to try harder."


You're right, aren't you Midorin?
doggiedynasty: (You are my Hero)


GONZALES!

Hello. Almost time for a new week. December is here! I had a little snow some days back, but it didn't last long at all.

Last night, I saw a little dog running in my back yard. It looked like a Jack Russel. Hope the little thing got back home because it was freezing.

How can I explain this year: First few months started as peaceful, then the bitch came back (to quote Elton John"), then I had to exert myself, then family and I got beat up by sickness. I think my recent says hasn't been helpful to myself. Monetary, private, etc. I'm good at being a follower and such, but...

Curses Capcom!
BREATH OF FIRE 3!

I took a break from it to play Breath of Fire 4 since I was near the end of the game, but recently returned to ot to face probably the most frustrating part of the whole game: The Desert of Death! (決死の渡航) Couldn't reach the end flawlessly the first time. Of course it was in part my fault since I haven't played BOF3 IN YEARS aannnnnd I didn't face the directions right.

I don't blog about game tips but this time I will. Who knows who'll come across it. Horis tells you the following:
+ Follow North Star until Evening Star is seen directly west.
+ when you see the ES directly west, head east
+ Walk east until the Evening Star sinks under the horizon (disappears)
+ Once the ES disappears, head North for three or so days.

Three things:
+ The directions inside the tent is a mistake!. I followed them the first time, I was mad!

+ It takes FOUR TAPS of the D-Pad to change cardinal directions.

+ You'll see a mirage of the oasis. Ignore it.

(smacks forehead)

I finished Hakuouki TV Series. I'll talk about it next entry, along with current expressions of the shows I'm watching.


Video time!
I LOVE AIRPLANES!


The song is called 'Illumination", by The Sagittarian.

What a coincidence. =D I ended up liking a song sung by a band named after my zodiac. It's December after all.
doggiedynasty: (Sad)
I have been feeling disturbed for the past few days. I woke up close to noon today cause I was a little on edge. Now I'm worried about sleeping.

I've been looking up sinusitis, bronchitis, valve surgery, and "Why do you cough at night"? I myself am still stuck with the constant throat clearing, but that's not my current concern.

...I'm glad to be composed sometimes.

Links
http://kidshealth.org/teen/your_body/health_basics/fainting.html
http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/diseases/facts/fainting.htm
http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/diseases/facts/stresswhydowegetit.htm
http://www.fitsugar.com/5-Causes-Coughing-Night-1858793

From what I can tell, fainting, if not prolonged, is mostly not dangerous (you just don't want to fall in the wrong place).

Twitter Trends
Virtually everyday, on Twitter, you have to say "OMG JUSTIN BEIBER I LoVE YOU" or "JONASISGOD", or Nicki Minaj, Selena Gomez and Katy Perry. Everyday??

10th Grand Prix is finished
Here's some good news: I finished GPX Cyber Formula (TV Series). I'll talk about it in more detail on another day.

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